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Its days like this when I want to throw in the towel and call it a day. I feel like I've had to sacrifice too much, and its going to be years before I see results, and well, what do you do when you want it all now?
All these efforts and no results... but then I found an old e-mail, from my dance director, when she let me know I had made her dance team. I remembered the joy I felt, and I remembered all the great things I accomplished (personal accomplishments) while I was part of the team. But I also remembered the sacrifices I had to make. Before the audition (months before) I started training, working out in the morning, taking dance lessons everyday, I took ballet (ok, one class, but I can say I took ballet) and afro cuban classes, and I went out and danced, just to practice. I gave up sugar, and I drank tons of water. It was months before I had another slice of pizza. Sure, these don't sound like great sacrifies, but at the time they were. I really wanted to dance. So I went all the way. In the end, I got what I wanted and it felt so good.
So maybe this is one of those days, you know, one of those days that I am really craving pizza and one of those days that I don't want to work out. What can do I do? what do I want? What's the big picture? Its so big that sometimes I lose sight.  The most frustrating thing is that its just the beginning. Maybe one day today's sacrifices will seems like nothing, although at this time they do.  So what will I do?  Go all the way I guess, keep on running, keep on training, because if you are persistant, there will come a day when you will get what you want and it will feel so good.

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